Cuts like a knife...but it feels so right
It was an unexpected gift and for a min I couldn't belive that the sms was from the number I am so struggling to forget.
We're together for 2 hours....and I felt like nothing has changed. Same car, same roads, same traffic, the only new thing was the mehendi in your hands with someone's name written on them. I could see the same love in your eyes ..... for me. Your lips still taste the same, your fragrance, yuor touch, the hug, the smile, playing with my mobile, the eye contact --everything was same. You looked happy.
You called and we spoke and I realized, it was an illusion. Though you were with me physically, there was a guilt that you 're cheating on him. You cannot love 2 ppl at the same time and I dont want to create trouble in your life. In 2 weeks from now you'll have no feelings for me. Physical intimacy helps in developing strong bonds and its just a matter of time. Its more painful to share you with someone. To know that the girl for whom I was everythign is now sleeping with someone else, laughing at someone's jokes, sharing a light moment, fighting over trivial issues, making faces. If we continue to be in touch it will make life hell for me and even you'll never be able to do justice to me or the most imp man in your life now.
I thought I'll get over you, but after sat it was difficuilt. U got married to someone and I know for sure that it was your decision. Be happy with it and have a good life. I'll never go to your city...I have no reason to now.
We're together for 2 hours....and I felt like nothing has changed. Same car, same roads, same traffic, the only new thing was the mehendi in your hands with someone's name written on them. I could see the same love in your eyes ..... for me. Your lips still taste the same, your fragrance, yuor touch, the hug, the smile, playing with my mobile, the eye contact --everything was same. You looked happy.
You called and we spoke and I realized, it was an illusion. Though you were with me physically, there was a guilt that you 're cheating on him. You cannot love 2 ppl at the same time and I dont want to create trouble in your life. In 2 weeks from now you'll have no feelings for me. Physical intimacy helps in developing strong bonds and its just a matter of time. Its more painful to share you with someone. To know that the girl for whom I was everythign is now sleeping with someone else, laughing at someone's jokes, sharing a light moment, fighting over trivial issues, making faces. If we continue to be in touch it will make life hell for me and even you'll never be able to do justice to me or the most imp man in your life now.
I thought I'll get over you, but after sat it was difficuilt. U got married to someone and I know for sure that it was your decision. Be happy with it and have a good life. I'll never go to your city...I have no reason to now.
Plz dont keep Kabir and Adi as names for your children. Those names are part of our relationship and so plz dnt make them part of your relationship with Sharad. Though I've deleted all your msgs but cudn't delete the pics. let them be with me as momento of our last date in Delhi.
I still wonder what did I do to get this treatment....hope someday I'll find the answer. Thinking of going home for a week or so. Spend time with ma and get on with life.
I forgive you and wish nothing but happiness for you...I'll never curse u.
Still in love with you....
posted by Sanjit at 4:42 AM
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